Still a broke MoFo

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I’m not really sure where I’m going wrong with my money… um… right.  I found myself with $30 at the end of the month, which is better than last month where I had $16.20, but I’m no where near where I would even remotely feel comfortable with what’s in my bank account.  So I suppose I can look at it as being a successful month, because I do have more at the end of the month than I did last month, but I don’t know… I had really wanted to have hung onto more.  I have to say as well the reason I have any money in my account… is because I have a boyfriend who helped me out with some present buying for a birthday coming up in December… which I wouldn’t have been able to afford buying with the amount of cash I had in my account.

I think it’s going to be a big challenge this month to keep any kind of budget – I’ve got 2 birthdays and Christmas… it’s not going to be pretty, but I’m grateful that I’ve got an understanding family who know I’m on a budget and we’ve all agreed not to go overboard with the present buying this year!  Thank … god.

I feel completely disconnected right now and I’m not sure I’m even making sense with what I’m writing tonight.  I’ve just been trying to get by and stay positive about everything, realizing it can’t get much worse and if I work on things I can turn things around and save some money for a rainy day.  It’s just feeling like a heavy load with what I know is coming up this month and realizing that what I want to give for presents…. may not happen.  It’s depressing to really realize that.

Blah.